13 years ago
I need to find out what's wrong with me...yet i have no health insurance! What can i do?
I really don't know what to do...Lately i have been having such horrible ups and downs and i have been really, really angry and suicidal at times. I have no health insurance and don't know what to do or where to go for help. (I live in Wyandotte, MI)
It seems like every month, either right before or right after my period i have really intense mood swings, i get extremely angry and fight with everyone i love...and it kills me because i never see it coming and i have no control over my anger or depression at that time. Also, every few months or so, i will have these crazy, crazy periods, in which i am in excruciating pain, i vomit all day the very first day, and i have this burning sensation in my lower abdomen....like something is literally scraping away at my insides. It's horrible.
I have no idea what's wrong with me...and ontop of everything else, my life has been really really hard lately...i have been struggling to find another job for months now, ive been fighting constantly with my fiancee and because of my anger and violent ways, he's threatening to leave me, and i feel so helpless, because these feelings and actions just come out of nowhere...SERIOUSLY. I have been suicidal and not even wanting to get out of bed sometimes.
Before i hurt myself or anyone else, I have to seek help. I need to know what's wrong with me...it scares the hell out of me. I have never been this depressed and/or angry in my entire life. Please help and give me good advice on what i should do....please understand where i'm coming from. =[
I don't know for sure if it's PMDD, depression, or what it is...and i need to fix this fast before i ruin my life because of things i have no control over....no one seems to believe me either when i say i have no control over this either. It hurts. =[
13 years ago
Well first off, you can have control over this. You just have to believe in YOURSELF.. and that you can control it. As for your period problems, try seeking medical help at a health clinic because it is either free to extremely cheap. Try getting on Birth control which may help with your period "personality" and the negative aspects it brings to you.
As for the pain, try getting a heating pad and placing it on the areas that you feel the pain. Alot of times heat is a good way to sooth any aches or pains that you have. If you have tried this and it does not work, try getting Midol or any type of pain control for the lower extremity area.
My best advice for you is to find a friend, talk to them about your problems. Have them encourage you and take steps along with you rather than you trying to take steps by yourself which obviously is not helping if you are suicidal. Someone will listen to you whether its even a person up here on this website! I am always open ears as well! You need to see the positive things in your life that makes you as a whole. You are a special person you just need to see it in your heart.
But all in all, I would try to make an appointment with a health clinic in your area and see if they can see you. If they need to know a reason, just tell them you are interested in birth control *even if you are not* and just go in there and tell them everything that is going on.